Embrace the Imperfect You!

As I walk through the lanes, I look at the eyes of people staring at me and judging me. I walk a little faster because I start feeling a little insecure about myself. The head that was held high now slowly starts looking down as I gasp for breath, owing to the speed I was walking with. I try not to look back as I find it difficult to face the reactions they give after judging me.

I start getting even more insecure and a cloud of self-doubt starts making my thoughts gloomy. I start questioning if I were perfect.. I start judging my own self. I start comparing my personality with others. I start hating myself. I start hating everything about me.

At it gets darker, tears roll down my eyes as I realise that I am totally imperfect, I begin to question my existence, I feel terrible about myself. I compare my live with the lives of other. Through my eyes, the life of the other person seems so perfect unlike my life. 

I start realising that I have few people around me and then realise that people of my age have too many people around them. This lowers my self-confidence even more. I ask myself where I lack. I remember every person who stopped talking to me without valid reasons and I join those dots with this. I sum-up everything to the very fact that 'I am Imperfect' and so 'Why would someone be with me when there are so many perfect people around

them?'

Hundreds of questions gather in my mind like the clouds in the sky during the rainy season. I start hating myself, I hate my life, I start judging myself, I find myself to be imperfect.. The night passes by with such bitterness about self.

As days and years pass by, I realise no matter who you are, no matter how perfect you are, people will still look at you with the same judgmental eyes. There is no concept known as a 'Perfect Human'. We all are imperfect beings and it is completely fine. Today I might feel low and I might want to distance myself from people, tomorrow I might want to share all my happy moments with my people, and MY People won't leave me in spite of them knowing who I am. They would stick to me despite of the imperfect mess I am. They won't pay heed to the judgemental comments the people pass about me. They know me for being 'ME' and love me for being 'ME'. 

Every person is not the same. The way I react to a situation may not necessarily be the way you would react if exposed to the same situation, but that's okay my friend. You and I are different. We are perfect in our imperfections. 

The way you walk, the way you talk, the way you are everything is just perfect and you need not change yourself just because those judgemental aunties and uncles who want you to change.

You know what is beautiful about you- It is the mess you are. It is the way you carry yourself. It is the confidence with which you face this world. It is the way you think about others and yourself. Every little thing about you is beautiful. Every little mess you create is beautiful. In short ‘You’ have a beautiful soul. Let no one change it. Don’t let your sparkle fade. Don’t let others ruin your dreams. You hold the pen of your life.

If you find that a person you wish should be with you, doesn’t like you and is staying away from you, then just walk off. You deserve better my friend. You are “Imperfectly Perfect” and the ones who know you won't leave you that easily because you are one in million. You are ‘You’ and there is no one like YOU!

Stop being sad for things that don't go right. Stop searching for your happiness in others. Stop going back to the people who once left you. Believe in you. You are unstoppable. Follow what your heart says and you would never feel disappointed again. Let no cloud of self-doubt engulf you because my dear what makes you special is that you are "Imperfectly Perfect!"